a chemical reaction?

A Poem by manas

the process of falling in love with someone who loves someone else compared to the neurological reaction in our brains and simply never being over them.

At that moment just like lightning had struck I knew I was in love
What is love I asked?

As psychology say a chemical reaction Dopamine creates feelings of euphoria while adrenaline and norepinephrine are responsible for the pitter-patter of the heart, restlessness and overall preoccupation that go along experiencing love it was like all the flowers of spring were blooming in this month of December

And then it was over it was fall the next spring no flowers no sunshine just emptiness and these wilting leaves
I found my one but I lost him I lost him cuz he had his one I lost him cuz his dopamine was created for someone else I lost him cuz adrenaline was kicked into his heart for someone else

But did I ever really have him? I knew the truth knew it from the start but why does it ache? why does it hurt? why do i cry? when I knew that he wasn't mine why did I fall in love with someone who is in love with someone else?

The rewiring of my brain started it slowed down this growing pain the headaches stopped the feeling of emptiness started to fade away my brain stopped creating dopamine the feelings of euphoria faded away n that was it I am supposed to fall out of love

the chemical reaction was over and as newton once said every action has an equal and opposite reaction this was my reaction and in the end it was over it was over like death claims a soul it was like the teenage years of my childhood ended and maturity dawned above this barren landscape and screamed its time

But was it really?it doesn't ache it doesn't hurt lighting doesn't strike when I see him but deep down it's not over I will always love him and I want to fall in love with him over and over again I want to forgive him over and over again it's this viscous cycle that's killing me n I want an out but I don't cuz i will always love him it's as simple and as complicated as that

maybe my brain has stopped creating those chemicals maybe my mind has stopped thinking about him but I will always love him it's more than a chemical
reaction it's more than that

I'm fucked up I said to myself
who isn't replied the world.
~Manas

© 2020 manas

Author's Note

this was really my 1st attempt to write this if you like this or maybe if u have some suggestions pls reach out

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Mr. D

You cannot make someone care. I prefer to be alone. To me it is just chemicals and when they wear off, reality sets in. Does love really exist? I do not believe it does in the sense you have written about here.