It Hurts

this is something I wrote awhile back

It’s August 29 and it’s 2am. 
My thoughts are going wild and I feel like my heart is dead. My chest is pounding and my eyes are filling with tears. I feel it mentally and physically, my heart just shattering into a million pieces. I feel it everywhere in my body making me weak. I feel it painfully taking away everything in me. Taking away everything I feel, making me empty. Making me numb to the pain of losing someone I thought was my everything. Life isn’t simple. Life is hard. Life challenges us to make these decision that will make us or break us, and then leaves us with so many questions. And with all those questions we get silence and with that silence comes more pain. Silence makes the heart and mind go insane. Silence is worse than the words you wish you never heard. It kills you slowly, it takes everything inside of you to try and fight it.. but you can never do it.