I am enough

this is about how i was with my other family as i like to call them and i started crying over something that had happened and the woman is like my other mom...i think its explanitory from there on out

You try to calm me,

As the tears roll down my face.

 

All I ever wanted was to be good enough,

It's just not as simple as you think.

 

I'm sorry for crying,

Is all I could say to you.

 

I try to fight back the tears,

But they just get worse.

 

I love you more and more everyday-

For loving me.

 

I used to pray that I'd make my mom proud,

Instead God blessed me with you.

 

I may not be enough for my real mom,

But I'm more than enough for you...the woman I like to call mommy.

 

Author's Note

If you need further explination messae me or comment and i'll explain...other than that let me know what you think...Please and thank you!...by the way ya'll she isn't my mother in law just a woman i go to church with I'm 15 and she has really been a blessing to me and is just like a mom to me.

Reviews

[MOON]

Very good write well expressed.

[Marissa]

thank you!

[Celestial Witch Child]

Very sweet-- it makes me want to give you a big hug! lol (:

[Marissa]

Aw Thank You! (: lol

[afra]

i can relate a poem ....i love it ...trust me you are not the only one who goes through it

[Marissa]

Thank You!

[Reform69]

I'm feeling this tho, I enjoy the tribute to your step mom, I never experienced something like this so I can say from personal experience but I hope the step mom knows how much you care =)

[Marissa]

I'm glad you like it....and she definately knows how much she means to me and how much I care, but I must say she's not my step mom...she's a woman I met at church almost 2 years ago and we ended up getting close and she's just like a 2nd mom to me...and when I'm with her and her family it's just like I'm apart of the family her little kids call me sissy so you can tell I mean alot to them too...well I'll stop jiber jabering and leave you alone, but thank you I'm glad you liked it!

[Reform69]

ooo whoops haha i guess I shouldn't have jumped to step mom conclusion but that is great, my priest at my church I consider a second dad, so in that sense I know what you mean =) Keep Writing!

[Marissa]

it's fine...I didn't clarify it as much as I should have so it's cool. That's awesome I love having that second family it's for me things at home aren't great, but not horrible so in that since my second family is like a getaway that everythings fine and they get who I am and love me as is. (: thanks!

[Laura Maidah]

Third stanza sells it.

[~Sara~]

I liked this poem alot. It has a good description of your feelings. I think it would be great if you explained more, but it's still a great poem. Thanks for sharing.
-Sara

[Marissa]

I'm glad you liked it! And Thank You! I will definately try to work on explaining more.

[That_Girl]

I liked this. It's emotional but not depressing... I'm glad you had her as a 'mom'. :)

[Marissa]

Thank you! I am too...(:

[Dayran]

A growing up experience that contains a curious reference to two mothers that has persistently dodged all efforts at uniting the experience. Its own past references provides a rotational sensation of one mother for another like a ride at the carnival. I figure it ought to settle down sometime and create a more stable and true experience.

[Marissa]

funny thing is it is a true experiance...my mom can't be happy with anything I do....it's wrote the way it is because I'm not gonna have half truth half lies...like i've said I love my mom, but she's not happy with who i am and who i'm not....I was lucky enough to find a woman from my church who loves me and is proud of me just as much as she is of her own children...not meaning to sound rude, but this is true and it took me 15 years to notice this isn't the way a mother treats a daughter....and definately not when she treats her other two children and grandson t totally different.Odd thing is if it weren't for the woman from church I probably never would do anything and I'd be stuck....I honestly believe God seen me struggling with my issues as a child who doesn't seem to make a mother proud and he put someone in my life so I didn't just go off the deep end.