The Exigence of Me

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When you look into the mirror, what do you see?

A mere reflection?

When you feel larger than life on the outside,

Do your insides suggest otherwise?

When you think you’ve found your missing half and she leaves,

Then, what do you believe?

 

Life’s quite funny; a Shakespearean comedy.

It’s a play on your life, you’re the butt of the joke.

You are characterized by your moronity.

You fail time after time so methodically.

Ironically, you have it worse, you proudly boast.

We feel our own perspective is what matters most.

 

When your back’s against the wall with the game on the line,

Do you always come up short?

Do you build walls to hide your insecurities?

Is this what shields your purity?

Have you ever drowned your sorrows, drink after drink?

We foolishly displace our pain so wrong, I think.

 

My psyche is an enigma like no other.

My thoughts racing every second of every day.

Pain and sorrow are bottled and safely covered.

The truth’s buried far too deep to be discovered.

Those whom are closest to me, I call them my friends.

Yet, nobody knows if they’ll be there in the end.

 

Do you ever feel at home, yet you’re all alone?

Do you want to change, yet you only stay the same?

Do you ever feel the urge to cry, yet your smile lies?

Do you ever wish you didn’t exist because it’s hard to find the exigence?

 

My heart and mind are at war; my body in disorder.

Empathy is the culprit of my demise.

I hold mine and others’ burdens on my shoulders.

The added weight drags me down as I grow older.

I didn’t choose who I am, but I’ll never change.

I am proud to be me, and for this I am sane. 

Reviews

[Kathryn Smith]

Mett - I love your work...and the line about being the butt of jokes would definitely be me sometimes! I often feel like my life is a never ending outtakes reel. lol This is well penned..and any 20 something year old could probably relate. :) Hope youre well my friend!

[Kathryn Smith]

Matt* lol Look at me typing too fast. ;)

[Matt Hargenrader]

Thanks so much, Kathryn! Your feedback means the world to me. I'm glad you can relate, but I'm sure you're never the butt of the joke ;)

[Kathryn Smith]

:) aw thanks. xx

[Shae-Leigh Johns]

dude I love it, this is powerful I love it