Crystal Scars

I stand there

Deep white scars like crystals shimmering in the sunlight

Does anyone notice? 

I bow my head like a scolded child as I enter the red brick building that holds all my greatest fears

Stupid fears

They look at me

Seemingly friendly eyes watching and waiting for me to join them 

How can I keep this up?

I need to keep walking

Avoid my problems like I always do

The fear grips my empty stomach 

As my hands cross and cover the crystal scars

I walk over silently and try hard not to speak

Even I have convinced myself that I'm fine 

They laugh and smile as I think about death

I laugh and smile too

As they think it's real

But these crystal scars won't fade

And neither will my mask