Missing Piece

I am here

Do you see me?

You look at me

But did you see the pain

Or did you see the pieces

The part of me

That has been missing

Because I have been searching for it

It's been weeks and I am starting to loose hope

In ever finding that piece of me ever again

The only glimpse of this piece

Is in the memories of the time before

You left 

Have you seen it?

The piece of me that has bee missing

I misplaced it with you

Have you found it?

Or maybe you took it?

That must be it

I have to accept that 

The piece is gone forever

I don't think you realize

How special that piece was

Because it seems to be the piece of me

That has been holding me together for all my life

Until now

It's gone and so is my ability to try

To try to keep going

To try to find the strength just to be okay

To try to find the muscles to smile

To try to actually laugh and not the fake one when you're trying

Just to be happy or not to let anyone know the pain

The pain that can only be suppressed 

Inside for so long

Can you see it yet?

Or can you even bare to face me?

I'm trying to keep going and be happy

Yet inside I am dead 

I want to curl up

I want to let it out

But if I start I won't stop

And I can't let that happen

If it does

I won't be able to control it

And I don't know how to get through it

But it might happen if I don't find

That piece of me

I know you have it

Can I have it back?

Or do I need to find another way

To fill that piece of me that was there

Before you and is now gone

I know you leave soon

Please don't go away with it

But if you do take care of it

Because that piece meant a lot to me

And now you have it

And I have nothing but memories