dodge.

sharp, quick: my heart;

exerting frenzied breaks of escapism,

the perfect relief of defenselessness.

body limp,

head light,

Barely here

: how I long to feel as the wave of anxiety

overtakes, overcomes;

No. I'd rather the obvious option of none of this happening at all.

But here I am again, hurt and weak as always.

So I squeeze my hands shut tight.

inhale,

exhale,

overcoming the tears and telling myself it'll be alright.