The Girl Part 1

A Story by joshuatheking

How i see the one.

I don't understand why she acts like she doesn't like me. I just avoid her now because I ready don't care science she publicly said that to my friends that she doesn't like me. Every time I remember that she said that, I feel like crying. She always is saying dirty stuff to me and we were laughing and s**t but now I'm really pissed. I just don't give a f**k. I know she really likes me because I hear her talking to her friends about me and saying things. I really still like her but not that much because she really is ignoring me. I really love her and would do anything for her but now I just don't have that self-esteem because of my parents don't even encourage me to go out with a girl because of what happened last time when I dated a girl. when I broke up with her we had a huge argument and we were cursing back and forth. but really I didn't like her. I just didn't want to break her heart.

Shanice is a girl that likes me and for the first time, I like that person back. I was hurt when she said publicly that she doesn't like me. even though that I know that she like me I just took it really hard and was pisssed at myself thinking that I did something wrong and so now i just quit. In my mind, I'm thinking about things that I said to her and that did and I'm going through my mind like what did I do wrong and if I hurt her in any way. I would say bad things to her but we both know that I was playing with her because she knew that I really liked her. I really feel like giving up because if she doesn't like me that what point is there to be at school because like there is nobody else to talk to and I need someone I can trust to tell about my life and things that are personal and I cant tell to any other person. When she and I were talking I used to tell everybody that we liked each other and even now they say we would be a cute couple but i just don't care anymore.

We used to talk all the time about funny s**t and we used to laugh together. Every day I used to talk to her about important stuff in our lives. This was before I even knew that liked her. When we started to realize that we liked each other, we couldn't even keep a straight face. We would blush and then laugh. It was like those cheesy romance movies when they say "your father must have been a thief because he stole the stars and put them in your eyes." I would not say that s**t because it is said that, it would be mad corny to her and I feel that it would make her like me less. every time that I would make a joke she would laugh. Ii knows the signs that a girl likes you. She had always looked at me when I wasn't looking. My friends told me that. If I turned and caught her off guard, She would blush and we would both laugh. Everybody would ask me why don't I ask her out. I would play with her and her friends at lunch and occasionally I would notice her looking at me. I would then look at her and she would turn away knowing that she was caught. I know how she feels. Sometimes I stare too. She is a nice girl. About 2 inches shorter than me. Sometimes I would have reprimand myself as I found myself staring at her a*s. Lots of kids in my class would harass us and we would get angry at them and blush because we knew the truth. To me, she was just a hot girl I liked and that's it. I don't really know what she thinks of me but that's all I know. I have a friend who also likes her friend so I use her as a way to help him. It would be nice to go on a date.

Recently I have been noticing her look at me more and more and we have been talking to each other a lot and I'm starting to see her get closer to me when I sit next to her. We are practically on top of each other every day and I'm thinking about asking her out. It is really hard for me because of I and not good with talking to girls that I like on this topic. The next day I made the decision to ask her out. During math class when we talk a lot. I said it clearly to her but had to say it at least 4 times. I knew she was playing but I still was serious. She responded to me in science class when she said "I will think about it" I have known from experience that when a girl says that, they are scared to go out or don't like you that much. I took it too seriously and when I went home I cried. I was really angry and was asking my self why doesn't she likes me.