As I fly above you now

A Poem by Miag

Looking back I can see the moment I knew;
That I never meant very much to you;
For years and years I tried and tried;
To get you to hear my cries;
No matter how I reached for you;
You always pretended to have no clue;
Oblivious to my pain;
Rooted in guilt and shame;
I always wondered how you would feel;
When it was too late to address the hurt that needed to heal;
As I fly above you now;
I see you ask yourself how;
You never knew it would end this way;
How I never found words to say;
That I felt trapped and in despair;
That I never thought you cared;
How I always felt alone;
How I never found a home;
As I fly above you now;
I see you thinking back to all my tears;
What you thought were misguided fears:
How I told you I felt lost in the world;
How I would revert to a misguided little girl;
As I fly above you now;
Please know that I’m at peace;
Please know that finally I can sleep;
Know that you’ll never have to hear me complain about my anguish and pain;
Know that I’ll never call terrified of the fears in my brain;
As I fly above you now;
Know my cry for help has been answered;
That I no longer feel pain, shame or guilt;
That my night terrors, fears and pain are silent now.