Speechless Drive

A Story by Mia C.

The music played quietly, but at a rapid pace, like the waves hitting the shoreline just before a fierce storm. The aroma of gasoline permeated through the air.
The sky grew dark quickly, the afterglow was nearly gone. You could see the stars faintly, as they flickered in the evening sky.
The drive felt long, but it was all an illusion, for we approached our destination very briskly. My heart raced as we sat through what seemed to be a speechless drive. Words were hardly spoken, yet there was so much I longed to say.
I sat there facing the opposite direction of you, holding back a joyful smile.
I gazed out the window at the buildings we passed by. The windows of the car were cold to the touch, I could feel my body heat release from my face creating an illusion by causing one to believe the cool air was released from the glass window.
I gazed over at you for a brief second. Your smile lit this dull, miserable, empty world. I felt somewhat alive again. I felt joy in my heart, I felt the sadness I bear slowly slip away. You were so perfect, so alive, so beautiful. I found myself wishing I could be as you are. But, I don’t believe fate would be ever so kind to allow me such feelings of liveliness just as it allowed you.
We pulled into my driveway, walked to my door, and spoke very few words. As you left too soon, you softly smiled and wished me farewell.
Our hearts were not one, our minds were not in sync, but could you feel it? Could you feel your heart pound erratically? Could you feel the butterflies endeavor to burst out of the cavity in your chest, because your stomach was entirely replete with butterflies? Did your hand urge to lie in mine? Did you wish to say “I love you” before you said goodbye? Our thoughts and emotions were left unknown. We have no way of knowing the truth, for we are both, too, shy to speak. I, too, broken to love, and you, too, fearful of heartache. Perhaps we were meant to remain in silence, only longing for a love that will never be. I suppose this is what’s best for me, for you, for us.