Betrayed me

Why can't I sleep tonight ? Why is being happy making my body put up such a fight I thought they said it'll all be alright .. But where they ever right ? I hate the sight of not ever having a real smile again & I can't just sit down & "cluelessly" pretend that it's real ,
f**k my emotions f**k what I feel , 20 million times I tell myself to heal , but pain is too lasting & I don't have s**t to gain. Baby can you hear me ? Nah you don't know my name. You take me by my label in this society based fame & how do I say this without it sounding cruel or rude , you're not the same person that I gave my love too . You rearranged my love& made it drain , no f*****g sunshine in this rain , making me go insane & I will never accept the change.