But its our last day...

You were my best and worst friend

Not so long ago...Do you remember our story?

I do!...

 Maybe because it scared me for the rest of mt life!

Don't recall our story?... well then let me remind you

It started on a rainy day 

I was walking to school and you drove by

I didn't see you but you saw me

When you left the car and your mom rode away,you ran to me with your umbrella and said

"Hi, you shouldn't walk in the rain"

I looked at you and said "I like the rain"

And that was the beginning of our friendship

You and I became close and slowly you let me in your cruel world 

And I followed,

you were alone in the world 

And I became the pillow that you screamed into 

I loved being with you, I loved to make you laugh even though I knew the scars on your wrists

I loved to help you in math even if you knew the answers, you would look at me like...

like the things I said were so important

I would defend you even though you were always prepared for a fight 

I would do almost all the talking but you never told me to be quiet

And then it happened

We had two mounts left...TWO?

"I have to move away"

you looked at me and said nothing...

I said" Arn't you going to say something?'' 

We never spoke of that subject again

But the next few weeks became so important

We treasured each and every moment until...

The last day 

You walked me home and when we reached the corner you said

"I LOVE YOU!" I looked up at you and knew there would be no point

and then you said it again louder and took my hands 

You said Micky it's our last day 

I felt the tears beginning in my eyes the knot in my throat so big I couldn't  swallow

You looked at me and said "I need you Micky,please don't go.We could run away...I will take care of you"

And in that moment the tears began to flow 

You wiped them resting you hands on my cheeks 

"I'm sorry you know I can't"

  Then you pulled me in and kissed me 

My first kiss and then you said "Today was my last day"

You let go of me and left with not a word,just a moment ago our tears we mixed and here you leave me standing... alone ... confused and as you kept walking I screamed "I LOVE YOU!!!" 

One week later I hear from a mutual friend you funeral is tomorrow 

One month...

later the same friend says you left a note I remember each word for it haunts me day in day out

It said of your secret love and that the day we kissed was your last hope

It said that since I never went with you you saw no point in living because everything just falls apart

It said of how horrible each day was for you  

That note told me of your biggest nightmares and how you lived them since your parents passed last September

Two months later 

Depression slowly began to creep in 

I lost my first love 

I lost my best friend 

I lost you the only one that really mattered

Now it's a year later and here I sit writing...this poem for you 

Author's Note

Reviews

[Rajat malik]

From the reviews I got to knew that it's real....
So firstly i feel sorry for the pain you have gone through.....
And secondly, it's an amazing poem....
I loved the way you tributed it to him....
it's the best thing a human being can do for another one just as a gift

[micky]

thank you so much you have no idea how much your kind words mean to me:)

[Rajat malik]

You are welcome:)
P.S.- Feeling great

[micky]

thats awesome...i hope that feeling stays with you :)

[Rajat malik]

yeap!!! it will if people like you want if to:)

[micky]

people like me?

[Rajat malik]

I mean some nice friends like you

[micky]

ohh..lol:) thank you....:}

[Rajat malik]

Welcome:) honey

[micky]

hugs to you

[Rajat malik]

Same here :)

[Kousika]

I am moved yaar.. no words to express my deep sorrow..
You know the feel makes me cry for you.. cry aloud..
Heart aches.. Sry if this is true happening...
Great work..

[micky]

Thank you so much for the kind words

[Olumegbon]

Wow, I'm deeply touched... is this real? so sad and touching. nicely written.

[micky]

Yes this actually happened...thank you for the review

[Zoomout]

this is so deep and beautiful

[micky]

Thanks alot ...this one is a little personal

[Pushkar Prabhat]

very passionate, heartfelt and emotional..........
is this about the same friend you wrote about before.......your friend will be proud of you.
i pray you find peace.........
i love how dedicated and beautifully you have crafted this poem.
i loved it!!!
:)

[micky]

Thank you so much Puskar

[J Johnson III]

Very touching. If this isn't fiction I am very sorry for your loss. Good way to honor the relationship is by writing. This could be a really good song or book in my opinion.

[micky]

Thank you so much Annabell :)