I never hated you

I know you,that's clear
I know you cry at night
I know your to afraid to fight,
to fight back,back the... fear

So afraid of the world...afraid of the mirror
Afraid of your thoughts..your mind
Theres no light ...so darkness is all you find
Vision bluer...fog...(it will get clearer)

I hope...
But no one told you that so turned to... things
Spirits(the bottle kind),hoping that it brings...
Answers...hope is all you have left,its how you cope

But the bottle just let you down
so you move on to the next..thing
the unmentioned...still no answers...not a thing
...so you try and drown...

Yourself...no success
And suddenly this combustion of emotion
leaves your mind in a commotion
Turning the pieces you were..into less

Driving yourself into the ground
so afraid and alone
Always around people,yet your on your own
To afraid to make a sound

I know your terrified
You put your life in the hands of time
"I'm fine"
You lied

It was the best lie you got taught
as long as your story
was about success and glory
the fake smile is what people bought

Don't mention death...don't mention your real feelings
Coz they won't understand
So you follow the crowd like a fake brand
Lie, don't mention those things

in your head
Play along
pretend to be strong
Pray for death,yet your still not dead..

Out the door goes faith, spirituality
Out the door goes bits of you each day
until the point you faid away
I know coz,well your... me

You won't feel better soon
but go out side look at the sea
Its okay to gasp for air,(trust me)
Look at the stars,look at the moon

Remember some day
not any day now..
Don't question how?
Just know your gna be okay

Ive been trying to write this for while
 I'm not sure if it an apology
Or guilt or sincerity
But someday you'll smile...

And just so you know I never hated you <3

Author's Note

Thanks to all my friends on WC <3

Reviews

[marcus]

I had a feeling at the start that 'you' was 'me' and 'me' was 'you' !
I don't understand why some of the best writing often seems to get so few reviews here!!

[micky]

Thank you Marcus for your kind words :)

[marcus]

I think people are still scared of the truth

[micky]

I think so as well ....doesn't help you hide from the true just accept it and move on

[Dani The Unreviewed]

Wow wow and wow :) this is so powerful! i love this, like an apologie...only that this one is directed at oneself and not someone else. Clever write.

[micky]

Oh gosh thank you for the kind words...I struggled to write this one coz it's a very personal piece lol :)

[Dani The Unreviewed]

Well...the fact that you posted it, says that you are a strong person :) keep writing.

[micky]

awww thank you...your so kind :) hugs

[Dani The Unreviewed]

You are welcome :) and *hugs*