You, Me, and Her

I miss you
I'm sorry I haven't answered or even tried to reach out
I know it's been two years
We've all changed and that's okay
And I've changed for the worse, so don't even worry about yourself
It's not like you ever did to begin with
That's why we were so perfect together
You, me, and her
But she is gone now
When you left town she left me
She checks in every now and again, but I'm not sure what to tell her
Because I'm not okay
And I miss her
Maybe even more than I miss you
That's hard to do
Don't take my lack of response as a sign that I don't care
It's hard to respond when you want to say everything in the world
But know you can't say anything at all or your heart will break
So I respect your decision if you can't respond to this
I couldn't bring myself to after all this time
The only thing keeping me writing this are my own lost thoughts at 1:30 in the morning
I hope your life has been amazing these past few years
Maybe I'll see you again someday
I miss you

I stared at this on your message screen for so long
Too long
But I couldn't hit send
So I'll send it to others
And it it's destined
You'll find it one day

-A