Courage

Finding the Courage to act

Astonishment; the wildest self discovery
What are the limits of man?
Disease of the mind, is it
Disease of the body?

Yet the mind and the body
Two things; separate
Yet united as one

The mind uses knowledge to effects it ends
An end I need to find; the one before me
Is mediated by knowledge

How can knowledge, used by the mind
All of us a sudden master the physical?

My Vagal circuit is broken
The nucleus ambiguus, shut down
Trauma is in my nerves
Immured in my body

Bullying from so long ago
Bullying, whose memory I hardly remember
My mind went on, or off
On, it lived in dissociation
And off, it no longer lived

The feeling, how can one describe trauma?
Unless you've experienced it, the term doesn't apply
To regular emotional difficulties

My lord, astonishment at the distance
From a healthy adapted mind

I feel such a profound sense of compassion
An intense. unquenchable love
For the self who has suffered

Recovery is in sight
But in the way lies feats

Fears lurk before me
And the shadows they produce
confound the mind

I know what I need to do
I feel compelled by some ineffable feeling
A maturity, a wisdom, from deep within
It utters to me: have courage