My Desire, My Shame

Something I wrote about a person, but no matter what I say or do, she always seems to disappear without saying why, but I know she feels something for me, and maybe one day she'll understand. For Cyn

In the mist she was standing

Hiding beyond those walls

Always begged her to talk

Heard silence in empty halls

Not even a sound whispered

As I tapped away silently

Trying to suede grasping her

My heart shines so brightly

Seeing her every so often

I tug at her not to let go

She looks at me grudgingly

Her mist only fades for show

Held onto her words so tight

Never know why I always do

She brings out the best in me

The one thing I wish she knew

Leaving with giving no sign

Her ways I cannot understand

Always told me I must leave

Feelings fade in shaking hands

I know she feels my emotions

This she always seem to share

Our unheard bond inside of us

Dreams of her being so near

Opened up to her once more

I see she wants me to touch

Then I wonder as she stops me

I always say I miss her so much

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