Not Mine

A Poem by marsha

Truth

Not Mine

In my mind there is confusion.
My sanity hard to gain.
I cannot seem to separate feelings of joy and pain.
When I hold you in my arms at night my tears
begin to flow.
Are they joyful tears I cry? I find it hard to know.
I feel the joy in knowing you will be in my heart for life.
The tears also may be there, for I will never be your bride.
Will you ever tell me "It is you I only need"
I choose my moments careful, to touch you
tenderly.
My heart it is full of joy tonight, as you sleep here in my arms.
Why won't you stay beside me? Why must we always part?
Pain brings my tears flowing fast for I know the
reasons why.
I am only here for touching, the rest is for your wife.
Marsha Pavlovsky