hellborn

I am seconds away from being engulfed in a fire that was born into my brain the moment I gasped for my first breath of air

tears drip down my temples from time to time with the only ability to ignite the unforgiving flames

I was conceived into a womb that would only bruise me as I matured, as if I were a fruit rotting from her exposure

I grew thorned vines from a mental void that diffused down to my fingertips and hollowed me out at the age of 13 

I found tranquility in substances that made the ailing parts of my brain go absolutely mute and allowed me to exist outside of my own emotional cage

I've seen death rob more loved ones from my hands than I could count, I've watched him yank my ankles in the middle of the night with no hint of fear in my eyes 

these things do not make me fragile

if anything,I have become a ray of light who sears anyone that gets too close

so that they can take an ounce of my agony with them when they run from me

Reviews

[R.E. Ray]

Allison, this is incredibly raw and intense; pain and anguish conveyed in a few well chosen words and phrases. Whether from personal experience or observation, it speaks to the abusive life many have endured and survived, largely a credit to their personal strength and resilience.

I particularly like "these things do not make me fragile" and "if anything, I have become a ray of light" - examples of the strength and resilience I mentioned earlier. And, with strength comes hope. And, it's my hope that someone who needs lifted up will read your words and find encouragement and strength. Nicely done.

[aspen]

yes this is definitely from personal experience, I haven't ever been able to figure out to properly word how these things make me feel or how to convey my extreme pain from everything I have been through until recently. Thank you so much , im so happy that you like this poem and I truly hope it helps someone who needs it too. I hope they find the strength that im trying to find right now. No one deserves to have to go through this type of life and this amount of pain. Lots of love to everyone who needs it!