Burn Out

   I can’t help but to watch you

There is something connecting in your eyes

I am attracted to you

When it’s wrong

When I shouldn’t be watching you

Yet… I can’t pull my eyes away

Uncontrollably they dart back to your face

Betraying myself with their glances

It takes me a moment to gather my thoughts

To pull my mind from your images

A conflict in me from the very beginning

It’s

Something in your calmness

The startling beauty of your eyes

I feel it every time I am in your company

Comforting -tall- soothing

Intelligent

Sets me back

Nearly steals my breath

I almost yearn to stand closer to you

For your eyes to wander over me

With their depth " practically no need for words

I know I should control these reaching emotions

As I have

Push them back into my pockets where I have stashed them

For months

A secret I should have kept

To keep comfort while we work

But I sensed a fire in your gaze

Almost like you were looking deeper than just the blue of my eyes

                                 Like you read my concealed cryptic sentiments,

No need to worry though

I have my essences under control

I won’t speak a word of this again

In fact -this truth has never crossed my lips "

Only my finger tips

It won’t

I just needed you to know

For a reason unknown to me

In case you read it from my eyes

It’s just a fiery crush I have in me for you

Temporarily engulfing me

Alike all fires

Unless fed…they sputter and burn out

        As fast as it started

              Leaving remaining friendship…

Probably exactly where I should have kept it

Held on to my secrets that I had for you

Only it’s just a crush

 And, I could have left it without saying

If it was not for your eyes….