Hello and goodbye

Depressing. Slightly mature content, if you don't mind really depressing work then read on. ^^

June 11th, 2011

Hello and goodbye.

I discovered today that I, December May Williams, am a murderer. It's not what you think-- I didn't go on a crazy killing spree, sawing people's heads off, and I'm not a terrorist-- but I killed my own mother, today, sixteen years ago exactly. My mother, Elizabeth, was diagnosed with postpartum depression, meaning that she was depressed due to hormone changes after I was born. I didn't physically kill her, but...she's still dead because of me. And my father was devastated when he found her body hanging from the second story window of her bedroom in our old house. We moved soon after that, and I've grown up here, under the lie that my mother died in childbirth. But today I found her suicide note. The one she wrote to me. And so today I shall die, to be with my mother, to end my life with her. Maybe my second life will be better...I won't be haunted with her piercing blue eyes every time I close my own. I won't have to worry about my father's own sorrow for his wife. And I shall rest forever in peace, instead of out here on my own...

So goodbye, world, and I'll see you in Heaven...

Daddy, please know that this wasn't you...It was my own choice. A decision I made on my own. So when you find me hanging from the window, or my wrists slit in the bathtub, just know that it was no accident.

December

Author's Note

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