Beyond Barren

Written from the new perspective of who I am since surgery.

 

Beyond Barren

 

I’m beginning to fear what happens

now the very thing that made me female,

a woman, is lost. Am I no longer

the person I was, has she disappeared?

 

I have changed visibly – on the outside.

Can everyone see this shift, feel this fear?

Does it make any sense to them, more so

than to me, that I’m afraid of this change?

 

Easily defined before by children,

and my ability to have borne them,

I am beyond barren, I am empty.

Only a scar left as a memory.

 

Reflected in the mirror, I search this

woman for beauty, passion, existence.

 

Reviews

[mick weller]

I'm thinking it must be easier for blokes with a vasectomy...
just wanted the pain to go away - `course there was the feeling `just what if I wanted to start again with someone new` at the back of my mind...
brave write - time for reflection and a new perspective...
it's all about confidence and I hope you regained it!
thank you for sharing this