Hello My Name is Cancer

I've been running all night searching for a place to rest my head. I've been begging someone to let me in. I can't figure out why no one see's her. She comes back every day, she doesn't let me sleep, she doesn't let me eat or even think. I've lost myself, I can't even remember my name...the only thing I remember is the pain. It never goes away, it never stops. Some days I am too tired to run, and so we sit and talk. She tells me that I don't have to run, that I'm safe with her. Often times she tells me that I can go with her for good, and things will finally be easy...but she always reiterates that I have choice. I can keep running, and she will keep chasing me, or I can lay down and let her take me away. What do I do? Do i keep running, hoping that one day I'll escape her? Do i give in and let her consume all of me? What if I keep running, and I never escape, eventually she'll take me by force... All I know is that I'm tried. Tired of running, tired of fighting, and so I sit and I talk with her once again. Today is different though, she tells me her name and she tells me that she's serious about our relationship... She asks me to come with her, to make a decision I'm just not ready yet....