"I Love(d) You"

A Poem by Beaudyn

Three words alone that make your whole world seem bright, or tear it to shreds.
Three words that can dry your sorrowful tears, or create a downpour of emotion in your eyes.
Three words that were said to me that night.
The night my life turned upside-down.
All of my innocence shattered in that cold dark bed.
All of my morals, my dreams, were gone and wasted.
You told me you loved me, and left me laying there...the guilt of my mistake bearing down on me.
I was forced to walk away, the happiness and excitement drained from my eyes.
They were now hazed over with a look of confusion and hurt.
I had loved you with everything I had, but it meant nothing to you.
All I was to you, was a toy.
A little doll on a string, willing to go whichever way you pushed or pulled.
With your farewell, all ties were broken.
No more strings, no more empty one-sided moments.
Finally the freedom to be myself, not the person that thought you loved me, not the person who bore a mask every time you were around, hoping to get your approval.
Today I set out to find real love, and walk away from the “love” I left behind....