Esoteric knowledge

10/1/2016 This poem reflects my self-doubt, which is something I still struggle with, but it has gotten a lot better.

Growing up everybody always thought I'd be a legend
But my future tales of success are only just a legend
Stuck in my head each and every day
Several ways to cope to help take the stress away
Yet many of 'em vices let's not go down that path
Years of negativity, yeah I can do the math
Everyday's a struggle constant battles fight within
Is this a just punishment for my love of sin?
I feel I've hit rock bottom but I'll never see the end
My family knows I'm low but how low can they comprehend