Not Again

I'm so lost in you.

So confused.

Which way should I go?

My heart is pulling me towards love but my mind continously reminds me of the nightmares.

The nightmares that haunt the essence of me.

The nightmares that took me 6 months to get rid of.

The nightmares that consumed me and made me cold.

heartless.

coreless.

spiteful.

evil.

It took over my body, I couldn't breathe.

I couldn't take it!

Couldn't take this.

Never could take you.

I was promised.

I promised.

It was promised that this love was temporary.

I hate this.

I hate you.

I hate me for letting this happen again.

Letting us happen again.

I hate my heart.

My heart always seems to lead me in the wrong direction.

Leads me to pain.

Leads me to destruction.

Leads me to you.

But, when I'm with you it seems like the right direction.

As though my hearts knows whats best.

This time will be the test.

I'm forced to look at you in the eyes.

Forced to be around you.

Forced to be with you.

Forced to love you.

Knowing the result.

Knowing the cycle.

Knowing how this fairytale ends.

I will forever be your love slave.

 

 

Reviews

[deeps]

This is really sad and yet so true.
I like how this is presented.
Very well expressed.

[Rhine Wolf]

OUCH!!! so sad yet so true, our hearts seem to lead us on paths that our minds know so well, have been down before and yet we still follow our hearts and not our minds. well written.

Blessed be,
Fallon

[Egan]

This is very beautiful and now i am convinced that you are holding info from me but whatever. i love you and I love the tone that switches in here. It kind of sends me to a transe if you understand. Great job hun

Love you!!!