Where Were You?

Feeling alone in the world is one of the scariest things

Where were you 

when my heart was threatening

to beat itself out of my chest, 

my soul was on fire

with the sparks of a generation

of hurt and pain

and you where sleeping

on a half broken couch

no care about the world

that was falling apart at my fingertips.

I was alone in the moment,

fireworks exploding under my feet

keeping me in a prison

of my own making

understanding that I would never try to run

from something so pretty.

I was lost,

and you never found me

buried underneath blankets

that strangled me in the night

layered on top of my aching body

so maybe I would feel the pressure

of someone else again. 

You were never there

when I was dying for something,

last breaths clinging to my teeth

exhaling with every word

you never had the time to hear,

I left with nothing on my back 

except regrets clinging to the 

knives you put there.