To My Friend, Who Lost Herself in Heartbreak

I do not know how to fix this and that kills me

I look at you

eyes red with regret

and longing for the someone

that didn’t love you like you wanted. 

You shift under the world you are holding

with your shaking hands

as you begin to fold under the pressure

you weren’t meant to endure. 

I see you lock the doors to your heart

pushing everyone away 

like you are TNT 

that is waiting to explode. 

Satisfaction loses meaning

when all you wanted 

was never allowed

and you still taste 

what could have been

but wasn’t. 

These days you find nothing

in a world that is trying to save you,

you chop away open arms

like branches from your favorite trees

and you lose yourself in loneliness

and self prescribed misery. 

You stopped seeing beauty 

and I am trying to understand how

I could make you love yourself again

even though he couldn’t.

When I look at you 

the glass in my bones shifts

and open new wounds 

because you hurting is synonymous 

with me drowning

in all the ways I wish I could save you. 

So I just sit here

hoping you make it 

through ground shattering pain

like I did,

but I cannot tell the future

and all I can do is wait. 

Reviews

[Richard M]

Hi Ally I must be made of glass, as this has really spoken to me. Reverse the genders, what you've said mirrors so much a similar situation in my life. Your poem is very descriptive and vivid in its account and brings everything further into clarity for me. Lovely poem!

[Ally Ann]

Thank you for your nice words. It is so hard to know what to do in this situation, and writing was the only place I could turn. I am glad my poem resonated with you, that is all a writer could ask for. I wish you luck in your own situation, hopefully it did or will work out.

[Richard M]

So very hard indeed! Thank you Ally, it did so resonate with me deeply. I write poetry (to her memory) of this situation, in trying to understand what's happened here (personal and won't show), which helps me focus, understand, live with the situation. I loved your poem. Thank you!