Caged

let yourself out of your cage

I was born with insanity in my bones

fire burning in my lungs

with smoke blowing past my lips

cracks in every word

as if I would never be whole again

living brought the agony

of trying to understand

who I was 

in a world that was telling me

who not to be

and I was everything that they

said no to

sleep was nonexistent

behind hooded eyes 

and no way to realize

I was not to blame for falling apart

trying to stitch myself together

with all of the pain I felt

I only knew what it meant

to be racing against my own

biological clock

ready to escape the cage of my own demise

at any moment

if only someone had the reason

to leave the door unlocked,

hope that someday someone would

trust me with the key

until I realized that the key 

was inside me,

I was just too focused on the insanity in my bones

to pull it out of my own swollen throat

and create my own freedom