Maybe This Might Help Someone Else Feel Less Alone & Confused LIke Us

I realized something today.

I have to let him vent his

emotions.

The build-up of

stress and upset of everything

the questions, the nurses

the doctors, so many people

so many places. And many tests

All in a short period of time.

No wonder, I went off my head.

And I was a passenger on the bus

so to speak. And not the bus driver

who drove the route.

And I ran away.

He could not.

We were at a hospital again today.

Saw specialist. And Wow.....

the number of specialist people

in

the room alone.

Outwith the Doctor

shocked us both.

He is to go see Dentist, Speach

Therapist and so on.

Before treatment. And then next...

I am shocked. he is scared, angry,

upset and even calm and feeling

not in control of his own life.

I can understand that.

Just the thought of treatment puts

the wind up me. I know,  he even had

to have a fine needle in his neck last week

And that made me feel sick.

I have been so wrapped up in my own emotions

at times. I lost myself and him.

I really can say. Cancer is a disease you

do not want anything to do with at all.

Imagine a poor child going through this

with his or her parents. That would

break my heart.  And we are adults.

But,  it does not make it any easier.

No matter your age. Or what type

of Cancer you do have. And if your

lucky to get some type of treatment

that hopefully will aid your recovery.

It really puts into perspective life

and death. And living for the moment

and loving someone and show it more

so and to speak openly and honestly

with no bullshit or lies.

I guess. I write this as It helps me to understand it all

And hopefully, help someone in our situation as well

have some idea what it's like. And aid them.