Such is mylife?

Why the hell

was I ever born

When my parents

hated me?

I just a toy for their

amusement

and for them

to take their

s**t out on me.

When they where unhappy

as they usual where all the

time.

Then as I grew up

more crap from

other people.

All mylife.

I felt...

I attracted bad

problems.

From others.

Where as anyone

else would run a

mile if they where

faced with them.

Including more so

other people problems

that where closed to me

or I was in a relationship with

particularly.

How ironic!

I still feel this is the case. And

this is not my own life anymore

as I m living for others.

I am just a vessal

that is empty

and filled with other

peoples woes.

That I love.

Iam feeling empty

for me

and lacking love

and

compassion for me

from them.

That say

they love me.

Feeling used, abused

and hurt all over again,

and lonely at times still.

Such is life....wish I was

never born sometimes

due to this woe.

Reviews

[Peter]

Sadly, a lot of people do more and care more for others than for themselves, I can tell you from my life I felt the same as you did, and one day the person I was disappeared, I started to separate people, I looked a everyone closer and saw the inner person, so I started to return kindness for kindness, and anyone who had no love for me but was used to getting my whole soul only received bits and pieces of what they were after. And then they complained that I had changed. And I would correct them and say. no I am just older and a bit wiser. It's amazing to me, people who don't know how to treat us like we treat them, are not as oblivious to what kindness is, when we stop showing it to them, they quickly point it out, to us that we are colder and not as attentive as before!!! I used to feel as you do. As I grew older I noticed that people who spend their life being selfish end up just sad lonely and miserable. Now i am kind to everyone because i relized just as you will realize that it was better being kind, although it hurts terribly, but in the end it's the better way to live with an honest kind heart.

[Dave]

Dawn - it seems that you care so very much for and about others. Perhaps you should take more time to care about yourself. Fill your vessel with the joy that simply being alive should bring.

Take care - Dave