Just to be Me.. For Me...

Everyone is entitled to their wishes and dreams. As am I. To speak my mind. As others do also. For me. As they do for themselves. That is fair.

All I ever wanted to be was me.

The person I was meant to be

in life.

All hopefully before I die

I don't think I am asking for

much in my miserable life.

I have been told how to act

how to behave. What to say

what to do. You name it.

I was told forcefully. By being abused

mentally, physically and sexually.

and verbally by others.

I was just not allowed to be me

for me.

How would you like that?

I just can not please everyone

anymore in life.

I just want to be happy.

Is that too much to ask?

Yes, I am honest.

Yes, I am open.

Yes, I am blunt in my honesty. On here.

Because on here is a haven for

me to feel safe and secure.

Now. I am like What the hell

just happened to me.

Yet again.

Another human beings telling

me what I can and can not do.

It's okay for others to judge me

and criticise me. And tell me things.

But when I stand up for me.

I am bad.

I am Me. And going to be me for me.

No matter what before I die.

That is all I want.

Not a fancy car or fancy house

or money or to be rich.

Just to be me for me.

And no I don't want to hurt

anyone or upset anyone in

the process of finding and

being me for me.

Simple as that.

As I am a good person.

I know I am.

As hurting someone

would just kill me.