Left At the Side Feeling...

Feeling a little numb inside and lonely

and down and depressed.

Feeling I am there for you.

But to you. I am just someone

to moan at and get your frustrations

out. And support you and love you.

What about me. I have emotions also.

What do I want for my birthday? Is not a

priority for me. I could not care less.

I need a hug and cuddle for me.

A nice comforting word would not

go amiss either.

But it is all about you always.

Yes, your not ill. Yes, you have Cancer.

Yes your not having a good time.

Well neither am I.

In general. As I have my own

mental health problems and

health issues in general.

Outwith your Cancer and

other health problems.

I don't tell you how I feel

as I think. What is the point

you will just moan at me?

Like you do when you notice

I am quite.

As the world revolves around

you. I get it. And I feel it.

Except I am the only one

really supporting you

not your blood family

they just phone call.

And visit. Ironically sad

that is to me.

I need a carer for me also.