Golden Moments I Cherish & Help Me... Cope..

Birthdays to me are  just reminders

of how long I have lived.

How much suffering I have endured.

And the fleeting moments of happiness.

I maybe have felt in mylife so far.

What a miserable person I am?

All doom and gloom not...

Truth is I actually want to be happy.

Even in my dire moments of hell.

Growing up with parents that abused

me both physically and mentally and

sexually.

I still had moments of happiness.

Times I managed to smile and feel

a glimpse of joy within me.

Those moments helped me the most.

From just a glorious morning.

Sun rising and everyone is still in bed.

Peace and quite in the world around me.

And I am in bed. Alone and enjoying this

golden moment. That gives me pleasure.

Another time for me.

Is when I have a bath.

The fleeting moments.

I actually got time to myself for a short while.

I would enjoy the sensation of the clean warmth

of the water on my skin. The gentle touch of it

and the harmony of the cleansing water on my skin and soul.

And that made me feel better for a short time.

These moments helped save mylife.

Like now. With all the stress and anxiety.

I still hold onto those golden moments that

make me feel better and deal with

life a little better each day.