What have I done?

A narrative poem when I had betrayed two women with my love.

I sit alone 
More alone than ever 
For my actions 
Have left me this way 
I now see 
The hurt I've caused 
Those people 
Who love me the most 
Those people are 
Now the reason for my loneliness 
I've learned my lesson 
Form this horrible experience 
But will I learn 
Form this and carry on 
Or will I continue 
And destory people's lives 
I don't mean to 
But I don't think anyone does 
Is this how 
My life will proceed 
From one hurting 
Moment to the next 
Or will I understand 
And find true love 
Be faithful above 
And beyond the call 
Do everything that 
Needs to be done 
And live a happy 
Full of meaning life 
As my head spins 
All I see are my mistakes 
These have come back 
And now are beating me 
Beating me to death 
And then do it again 
I all want 
Is a light of guidance 
Something that I can use 
To find my way out of the dark 
And finally see 
The light of happiness 

Reviews

[LoveStar]

very well written. The happiness is inside you, just stop blaming yourself, love yourself and you will enjoy life. Afterwards, you could elaborate your journey from your current feelings to happiness.