Dear Isaac

You must forgive me, dear Isaac

For this is not as gruesome as it seems. 

It may seem insane to you, dear Isaac

But do you believe the end can justify the means? 

It seems I am lost in the darkness

And fading from the light

I find myself constantly praying that I make it through the night.

You often told me you enjoyed the bustle of the city, 

The plethora of voices conversing in melodic swells.

But little did you know, dear Isaac

That my conscience was a prison. 

As you recall, dear Isaac

I had spells where I lost time

I saw the future, I heard voices from inside.

Some crooned in sweet tones

Lulling me to sleep

Others screamed, a raucous din

Into my nightmares they did creep. 

These are the kinds of voices I soon learned to deny

Because if I did not, very often would I weep. 

As time goes on, I find I crave the silence.

I cherish each moment that I am not distracted by these nonsensical things.

But God knows that you want the most for the things

You’re never meant to have. 

Strength is only how well you hide your pain,

And I’ve been strong for so long

I don’t believe I’m able to stay strong

For much longer.

I love you, dear Isaac

With all of my heart. 

And know that it is not you with whom I wish to part.

And with that I do decree

That all these wretched voices shall die with me.

Author's Note

I wrote this when I was 17, and haven't changed it since. Let me know what you think.