Dear Chan.

You have it so wrong that you don't even know. 

Just because I didn't want you in my life. 

Doesn't mean I thought I was better.

Just because I love myself. 

Doesn't mean I'm egotistic.

I wanted out, and I wanted away. 

I was at the edge, I was either going to kill myself. 

Or have to change. 

I changed, and you didn't. 

I wasn't strong enough. 

See that I can take responsibility.

I wasn't strong enough and I couldn't handle you. 

I wanted to be happy.

Do you know how good it feels?

Yeah Iv'e been a little selfish. 

But do you see how many chances I've gave you?

Seriously count back on all the times. 

I let it slide, and forgave you the next day.

You pulled my final straw, and I wanted you away. 

I wasn't judging. 

Wasn't even really being selfish. 

I tried so hard with you.

And I just wanted to be happy, 

have a carefree life, and just live. 

You pulled me back,

 so I did anything to make sure you weren't going to come back into my life. 

I really just couldn't handle you. 

Your drama, 

your suicide threats, 

the worry. 

I was done. 

 

Reviews

[Norah]

It is true that we should choose ourselves over anyone when it comes to being happy. Well organised and well written lines. Keep it up!

[An owl on the moon]

Gripping, emotionally burning write. You reveal a deep pain.. angst that created a division.. a rift between you.. You write with amazing feeling.