why dose this happen to me

A Story by paul

all about how my depression started

hello there this is my story of my depression and here it begins

so my depression started when i started to go to collage i am still picked on even to this day i still feel a lone and hated but any way as i was saying it started getting worse as weeks went by now i have gotten so depressed i have gone suicdal and i started self harming i do two forms of self harm i scratch my arm untill red raw and cut my other arm till i see damage with my blunt knife and well all my friends puched me away becuse of my depression by then i wanted to end it all again so i tryed but i couldent do it for some reason i still don't know what that reason is for not killing my self but any way back to my story so i get worse each day that go's by but my depression is also caused by stress anxiety bullying loneliness ect. i sit in my room all day which dosent help but my friends pushed me away while im depressed and well to be honest it feels like no body cares about me but any way that kinda sums up my story

thanks for reading :)