YEAR

R.I.P. Daddy... I miss u!

Its been a long year

Filled with heart break

And sorrowful tears

Made from the ache

 

A year filled with despair

Cause I lost you

Schizophrenic nightmare

Came f*****g true

 

Its been a hard year

Cursed with yearning

Wishing you were here,

Never returning

 

The year that broke my heart

The year you died

Left me cracked into parts

Ruptured inside

 

Its been a bleak year

Plagued by regret

It’s a f*****g year

I’ll never forget

 

A year diseased with wrongs

Guarding your name

Trying to stand strong

hiding the shame

 

Its been a harsh year

At times so surreal

Its been a whole year

But I will never heal

Author's Note

its coming p on the 1 yr mark of my dads suicide... there will be more about him in the next wk... i cant believe its been a yr... omg... sometimes it still doesnt seem real... i miss him... but i know he is still with me... ok i am about to cry so....

Reviews

[Pakino]

Sad poem. I think what I would like to see from your poem is perhaps try to understand why or perhaps what is was that drove your father to do what he did. Its just an idea, but your peoms are always full of emotion and doing that will make you understand your father better while helping you ease in your acceptance.


Good luck.

[Brandon]

Very sad and well done.

[Tyler James]

Very touching, a passionate admission filled with emotion. Poems aren't usually my thing but something compelled me to read this one and i'm so glad i did. The best writing seems to come from intense despair and you've shown this. All i can say it that I'm so sorry for your loss.

[Sarah]

There is so much raw emotion in this piece, which I really loved reading. It isn't often that someone is able to completely immerse themself in a poem while writing it, and I think you did that just fine.^^ I love the rhyme (although sometimes the meter was off - for example, perhaps the final line would sound better "But I never will heal" instead of "will never heal") Just simple switching of words could make this flow & sound more natural. It was a lovely read, regardless. =)

[CJ]

What a beautiful poem. Its a passionate show of your pain.

[larryb]

Gives Pinky and great big HUGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG

[Adela Muresan]

I like this poem, because it resembles a lot of sincerity in agraceful form of expression.
Great write sister, great write.

A.M.

[SM Davis]

I'm so sorry...I have survived many from suicide. 2006 I lost three in the space of three months. Not parents or siblings, but painful just the same. I lost my father when I was nine and my mother eight years ago. You've done an excellent job of showing your love for him and your vulnerability since he's gone. I believe differently than most about suicide. I believe it is the ultimate expression of pain and hopelessness but I do not believe it is the end. I believe in a God that is BIGGER than EVERYTHING. Even the most mortal final act.

[DeAn]

life is a circle with no end. what was once will be again.

You will see him again.

very nice memorial. sorry for your loss.

-DeAn

[Pinky]

thank u 4 the nice words... i cant believe its almost been a whole yr... whts harder to grasp it tht at this time last yr... maybe i cud of stopped it... but i dont think i was meant to stop it... due to this event in my llife... i have relearned how to live... i left my bf of 5 yrs... to find happiness... my father opened my eyes to my denile of pretending to be happy... he was trapped in his mind.... and his way out was to end his life.... and.... i realize i was trapped by choice... so i broke free... i think he saved me... i know he wud be proud...