Thoughts Of A Waltz

If anybody in this wide world can relate.

Alright, remember what you said during last period.

You're going to fail, but talk yourself out of giving up.

Because you cannot give up-

Oh darn, we're starting.

Okay so that looks somewhat easy just step turn face step turn face-

OH GOOD LORD WHAT ARE THEY DOING-

oh don't worry it's just like the box step which you practiced-

NEVER MIND THIS ISN'T THE BOX STEP AT ALL-

And we have to DO THAT? Like, right NOW?

Oh, save our souls.

We're pairing by height, YES!
Tallest- 

Second tallest. Damn.

Okay, this isn't too bad, given the circumstances

But they look so elegant and I

I do not

Sorry in advance 

And we have to do that NOW okay

Kinda lightly place your hand over his-

Oh my gosh he looks so uncomfortable

Sorry sorry sorry sorry

And

Step-two-three st-

HOLD S**T

Ok ok ok

Step-two-three and uh

SPINNING okay we're spinning

And I let go of his hand, crap

And we're gonna do that again? Lord I hope so

Because I needed practice on THAT one

Oh okay and we're rolling and a

Step-two three DIG and HOLD

YES YOU HELD GOOD JOB FINALLY-

oh okay STEP two three step and HOLD
AGAIN WITH THE HOLDING

Wow, the walruss comment back from the play feels so applicable-

A dancing walrus-

AND WE'RE SPINNING AGAIN one two three

His hands are kinda sweaty 

Ok we did that better

This time

But still not what I was hoping

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Switching it up!

Okay, we're switching, should I-

Damn, he's taken-

DAMN, oh they are ALL taken, okay

So I'm pairing with

The instructor

Okay 

I see how it is, haha

Oh my gosh the height difference isn't gonna work-

ONE two three okay then-

Oh and we're going and 

HOW is she going so QUICKLY?

HOW? H-

Oh, okay, spinning-

Oh Lord I have to either crouch or let go of her hand-

I'm letting go-

I shouldn't have done that-

AGAIN? 
Alright...

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So I haven't stepped on anybody's feet so far, that's nice

Okay, switching it up!

And maybe this time I can-

Jesus Christ, why am I not quick enough-

ANd so it looks like I'm the odd one out again

I see how it is, haha

Wait, it's not really funny the second time

Whatever, pretend to hold hands with someone

Wow. The lack of a hand kind of hurts when everyone is so eager to be with their partners-

DON'T think about that! Just go!
STEP TWO THREE  

HOLD

STEP TWO THREE HOLD

Uh spinning? Okay?
Spinning by myself?

Very awkward, very ungainly

Maria could never

At this point I'll just cling to what I did in the acting

And pray

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Okay, for the love of God, I will not be alone this time.

Oh, everyone else is paired up, leaving only-

OKAY I guess this is going to happen haha hello how are you

Oh my gosh, I am actually gonna dance with him now okay

I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm so sorry in advance

And STEP TWO THREE

HOLD

Oh my god how is he so elegant this is like dreaming

STEP TWO THREE 

HOLD

This is a dream. And I will step on his feet and wake up, most likely

ONE TWO THREE
IN TWO THREE
LOOK TWO THREE

And OKAY this is way closer than I was with the other two

Um okay this is magical and 
AH S**T I USED THE WRONG FOOT
OH NO I DID IT AGAIN DAMN

Okay okay I've got the right foot finally

And step-two-three

And we're done

And we immediately distance

Okay that's reaction enough

But it's official

He is an actual prince

So what am I now, court jester?
Definitely.

Hahahaha nice dancing with you please don't remember how I used the wrong feet

Please

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A break! Oh sweet Jesus, Hallelujah.

And we all know where I'm gonna be-

Okay, in the hall.

Step-two-three-hold-two-three-STEP-two-three

Why was I alone

Why was I only awkward and incorrect the ONE time I danced with him

RIP me, forever in the hearts of one or two folks

Okay anyway 

Spin and spin and spin and-

Oh s**t he's RIGHT THERE

uh HI don't mind me I'm just trying to

seek redemption hahah s**t what is wrong with me

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Switching up switching up switching up-

WHY?

Why am I alone again?
It just goes to show-

Okay, STEP TWO THREE
I don't even have to think! Yay!
Just being and doing and regretting so wholly-

TURN AND TURN AND

Where would my hands even be right now-

What am I doing

Ahhhhhhhh

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Switching again with someone you HAVEN'T BEEN WITH-

Director-speak for somebody take pity upon this graceless lonely child

Okay this is fine

I'm not alone anymore!

And I have a hand!
That was SO desperate, oh my lord!

Step-two-three-

Why do you look so dead inside-

STEP two three

Seriously, you look bored

How can you be BORED while WALTZING?

Okay, you used the wrong foot this time

Thank you, good sir, for not leaving me alone in my mistakes

Oh, and we're done

And NOW you're smiling

Do I have the plague or something?

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Switching another time and

OKAY HI WE'RE GONNA PAIR UP AGAIN ALRIGHTIO 

THAT'S SWELL HAHA

I might actually die

OKAY 

DO NOT SCREW UP AGAIN

And we're beginning! 

Step-two-three

YES! ELEGANCE!

Step-two-three

YES!!

Step-two three-turnandstepandeverythingisbecomingroutine

AND we're going in oh okay

OH WOW this is acutally kind of close

Really close

Honestly I feel safe and comfortable now

With only about a second to process it

haha I am gonna misstep and ruin this aren't I

But

Oh good lord how I can I function at this proximity?

Circuits overloaded, system crashing, heart racing, and-

Did he smile? Maybe? Theoretically?

And the STEPS ARE PERFECT YES

I swear in your pasts life you were a benevolent and witty prince

Who could waltz away the evening

We RISE and FALL and it's like I'm not in control of myself

I'm just dancing, someone braver, someone WAY closer than I expected

This is the definition of perfection right here

And we're done okay

OH, tell him he did well

AND he distanced again alright that's cool

Finger guns? Finger guns.

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Oh god we have to do this for the children?
Nope nope nope

Fine, okay, I know how to dance with you

And step-two-three, yadda yadda yadda

I hope I don't look like a convulsing tortoise

Okay, that one's done and

OKAY HELLO I SUPPOSE WE'RE WALTZING AGAIN

Okay, so my hand is in yours

THE CROWD GOES WILD

But, oh god, she's giving me a smirk

I have to brush it off and

YES! ELEGANCE!

STEP-TWO-THREE

STEP-TWO-THREE
Yay!! This is a beautiful elegant dream and

WHY can this not last longer I just want to dance forever like this

I feel so confident and I'm dancing with HIM and wow this is all so exciting and new

And weeks ago I never could have guessed I would WALTZED with him

Maybe not well but okay

It happened

And it was clumsy and magical

Ahhhhhhhh

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And we're leaving? Okay

SO soon?

Well, yes.

Goodbye to all.

So LONG, FAREWELL

Please just leave before you make more of an idiot of yourself

Bye!

Author's Note

this was thought stream that, if I focused on it for much longer, I might explode from the over-analyzation of it all. Now I can focus on other things. Thank you, Internet and all its people, for tolerating me.