I Thought Wrong

The white walls I had torn down

Erect themselves once more

and I thought I was okay.

Now they tower over my

disappointed head and rain

all of my progress around me. 

Apparently the crack dug

deeper into my armour and

the only one to not notice

was me. 

How can I make sense of

where this all fell apart when

I was sure I was okay?

And goddamn it these walls

leave me no room to inhale

and less space to exhale.

They close in rapidly and even

with my arms stretched in front 

of me it won't stop.

If they close me in for good this time

please know I've tried and I thought

carelessly that I was okay.