What They Fail to Mention

They didn't tell me that my eyes would burn
or that my hands would shake nervously
and that I'd be cold on a hot summer day
because sleep evades me.

They didn't tell me that the world is bright
for about a week or so after the incident
but slowly it would twist and morph
into shadows and figurines.

They failed to mention that my self worth
became a half price sale or a liquidation
because when the product is defective
people would not want to buy.


They forgot to mention the fear I'd see
Tears shimmering in my mothers eyes
because maybe if I had one bad day
She would lose me for good this time.

The truth is you don't become reborn
As glamorous and romantic it may seem
being on borrowed time is heart wrenching
And I fight everyday to make sure that I'm still worth it.

Reviews

[Apollos]

“I’d be cold on a hot summer day”

That’s like jumping into a hot tub after being in a cold pool! I wouldn’t recommend such behavior lol

“Because sleep evades me”

Would you say you have insomnia? If so, what have you found helps to fight through it to finally get that ever elusive sleep?

“My self-worth became a half price sale or a liquidation”

That one hit deep for me.

“She would lose me for good”

That one got real.

Thanks for laying it all out there Poison and allowing this avenue to be a way of expression!

Is “worth” quantifiable in your eyes?

[poison&kerosene]

Yes I have had insomnia for a very long time. I unfortunately haven't found a solution. Ambien didn't even work. I've tried it all. It has unfortunately just become my plight. I wrote this poem a few years back. Now I would say worth probably isn't quantifiable. I just have a hard time being nice to myself. I wouldn't consider those thoughts if we were talking about another person's life. Thank you for reading and your kind words. This site sees the darkest corners of me. It has helped me through a lot :)

[Apollos]

Got it!

I saw that you wrote this a few years back so I was curious to see how your perspective had changed.

I use this site the same way so I find myself gravitating to others people’s poems that have that same vibe.

[Levi Levin]

Excellent writing as to the realities that many of us face. Great job!

[poison&kerosene]

Thank you for your kind words!

[Levi Levin]

Your welcome!