Second LifeA Story by Praveen GolaHaving a nice life with husband and kids, something was there in the life which was missing, something in behavioural part or somethingHmm…today our talks again took a long time to finish. Not a new thing although, as time passes soon when I feel him around me. Feel, its four letter word but has equally a deep meaning. It was not too long that I know him. It’s been around two years that I am in contact with a guy through some on line educational site. I, being a housewife of middle age, haven’t assumed our initial conversation to be too long. Having a nice life with husband and kids, something was there in the life which was missing, something in behavioural part or something in feeling part, perhaps. He was a college going guy who also used to take participation in the same website, the place where our conversation came into a new height. We started as a normal online friend, initially we used to share our professional life, our day to day professional work etc. And meanwhile, in those talk I found a friend, which not only shares his life but also cares for me. This sharing and caring relationship that we both have in our life is something different. Since our knowledge domains are different and also we both belong to different age groups ,sex, family background it was never felt in our friendship. In spite of all these, a kind of different bond was there in our friendship. It sounds something odd about the existence of such a fictional friend, to whom you haven’t seen or met, only shares your heart. I used to be a shy lady since my college time, and there after
marriage and kids didn’t give time to think about myself that I am also a
human being of feelings. Life became kind of scheduled robot. I used to
spend normal daily routine with little pleasure. My personal life has
almost ruined in most of the cases. I was unaware about most of the
things in life, like a novice pullet. This world is full of persons
having evil thoughts all the time in the mind. It was disguised to me.
He took as a big change in my life.
As our talks went on through internet, there is something that I
got attracted towards him. His talks, tutorials, way of presentation
everything I started liking. He told me the realities of the this wicked
world. I was like a frog in a well situation, who rarely goes out of
the house and therefore never ever thought about those things. We
started our friendship with the knowledge sharing ideas. So whether the
knowledge relates to anything, we share.
It’s a very different kind of friendship , a friendship of
happiness, knowledge, pleasure, talks. Spending night hours for him had
become a necessity for me. There was not a space of lust in me and in
our friendship but there is something hidden love exist between us, that
I see everytime I logged in there. This media of communication became a
messenger of my heart. Whenever I come here, I forget about the world
and this has become a source of great energies for which I may spend my
whole day in work continuously. I got positive side of change in
personal life, especially with my husband. Every night comes with a new
sun of endless talks with him. Today’s generation spends most of the
time on internet in some futile facebook chat and get nothing except
time wastage, but this knowledgeable chat become a love and necessity
for me.
This love is love of affection, caring, understanding, sympathy and
much more than this. In this world, society has marked many limitation
over a lady in which she lives. But this is something different world in
which I have no boundation, no limitation. My heart can go beyond that.
It beats when it found him online, it respond when something is asked. I
am full of my heart and I don’t tell lie anything. Whatever I think I
respond.
I talk him about his family, since he is a unmarried guy so he is
under parental guidance. He too talks me about my family, my husband and
my kid. Perhaps this chat is the first and the last thing that is not
in view of my husband, because of the sickness of society which will not
take this in healthy way, so instead to put noise in healthy life, it
is better to take this as my another life.
As happens in every relationship, things go beyond the thinking and
some fun chatting was established between us. We both enjoyed a lot
this change and it has everything to talk about. My all feelings
concentrate on this fantasy world where I am a free bird to do anything.
I have no limit to go and this fantasy world has become a pleasure for
me. Initially I thought a lot about this and discussed about this with
him. I thought that it is far better than those who indulge themselves
in extramarital affairs and then put question on their family life. I
like my fantasy world where I am a person who has desires and feelings
and it gets fulfilled by his love. Creating love scenes and living in
fantasy has become common to me in this world. I enjoyed this a lot.
And now, after having so much time spent with him on net, I didn’t
regard it as wrong. And many questions like what is the future of this
relationship? How far it will last? Which type of this relationship is
exactly? I don’t know these’ answers. It is something like a different
life of me, my another life, my second life!!!
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