Five/ Russian Roulette

Playing the game of life with a loaded gun.

The first was like a dream Raped in a nightmare of the back seat of a van
It was quick and messy
With a boy who never figured out the trick to loving me
The second was like a selfish love Raped in the delusional promise of commitment
It was slow and passionate
With a boy who broke trust in the name of faith
The third was like forgotten standards Raped in the delusional hope of gaining freedom
It was slow and passionless
With a boy in the body of a man who was emotion less
The fourth was like broken trust
Fueled by alcohol and pot smoke
It was quick but felt endless
With a boy who had once made you feel fearless
The fifth was like quick sand
With a house of love built on it
It was passionate and beautiful
With a boy who turned inside out to show a soul senseless and pitiful
........
It seems I keep playing with loaded guns
As if this Russian roulette owed me an endless chance.

Author's Note

In case you didn't catch on, this is about sexual encounters, some times we over look the magnificence of the effects some moment's and some people leave on us. Please feel free to review. It would be of great help.

Reviews

[dHarwin8184]

I really enjoyed reading this. Very heartfelt. I though it was beautiful how you took those misfortunate circumstances and turned it into life lessons.

[purpleray]

Thank you very much. I appreciate your review :-)