EVIL LOVE

The depression settles in my heart.....

My anger floods my veins.....

Trying to speak but the words are gone.....

Happiness fades to sadness and love to hate.....

Then finally slowly but surely my world falls to ruins.....

My light turns to darkness and soon i am consumed.....

My soul is darkened and soon dies.....

Then good in me is dead....

Leaving only the demons in my head....

Overwhelmed by rage and drained of all emotion....

Happiness is only an elusion....

My only constant is pain....

Hoping for an end but none in sight.

Twisting  the knife you put in my back.

Laughing at my pain.

leaving me to die.

Never looking back.

Needing a friend but none will come.

Wanting help but none is given.

Misery my only companion i struggle on.

My heart starved of love.

My body drained of strength.

Barely holding on.

I reach for you hand,but you do not receive.

Standing there,staring,watching as i suffer.

Playing with my emotions like some sick game.

Then like a broken toy,you throw me away.

So much evil from something so beautiful.

Unable to understand,you give no answer.

I lost your game and can not restart.

Haunted by your words.

Cursed by you memory.

You were truly the worst thing to have ever happened to me.

I let go of all attachment and a weight is lifted.

I forget your name and the words return.

I forget your name and my rage subsides.

I let go of my love and my soul is revived.

My strength returns and i walk away.

Never looking back.

Never to think of you again.

Nothing more than a dream.

As far from reality as possible.

My light reeluminated ,freeing me from darkness.

Heart broken now repaired.

Unable to love now lots to give.

The time is now.

I'm moving on.

Scars fading,wounds healing.

My elusion becomes a reality.

Happiness replaces sadness and hate is taken by love.

My future is unclear but i let go of my past.

Hoping,wishing,praying for something better.

Opening my heart to love.

Waiting for her.

The one meant for me.

Author's Note

please leave a review i want some input

Reviews

[Missy Lorraine]

This is a very dark poem, but I like it. You have a few typos as usual, but everybody makes mistakes. I like how in the beginning happiness fades to sadness...then at the end happiness replaces that sadness.....opening your heart to love. Great read!

[DL Shackleford]

You capture the roller coaster ride of emotions here well. I can feel the loss, the hurt and anger, and the final resolution leading to hope.

[Carolann Dowsett]

So raw and full of emotion. It screams out its rage and the sufferings of a broken heart. I love how you allow your heart to heal and open up to love again in the end. A great write.

[Mr Dunne Poetry]

Wow. This is brilliant! well done :)

[Kelsey]

This is beyond beautiful. It starts as something so dark, and turns into something so positive. The beginning is something I can relate to so well, feeling like that more often than I'd of course like to. The way you word your feelings is amazing. Wonderful job.

[Beaner166]

Thank you. This is one of my favorite pieces.

[afra]

pretty deep and dark ...good work

[.........]

The beginning of this poem with all of the dots seems as if it was scrawled in a notebook and now playing through your head as you prepare for the next stanzas that you're about to say; it's as if you're planning it all out and this is an interesting quality in a poem that I've never seen before. As for the rest of it, the ending is extremely choppy which adds a bit of a distraction for the reader but the meaning is good and I can see that you have the potential to do great.

[Beaner166]

Admittedly it has taken a regretable amount of time ( beer helped :) but I think I see what you mean...... F**k at one point this was the apex of my writing skill but now all I see is disappointment. I will edit it and I hope you will give me a new rating.

[Gitana Deneff]

I love the negativity. I'm a dark writer myself as you can see from my poetry.

[Miss Marie Riorden.]

"Misery my only companion I struggle on"
The picture captured my attention. I've seen a friend with the same one as her default.
The poem itself. Hopeless. Despair. All of the reverse effects of hope are tainted within. What most people think daily. Almost like their personal life. Wishing to fufill it sooner. There's meek hope within the poem, and that's always good. But most of it is colored with someone who is in a deep rut of depression. A very nice, relatable write tho. We've all been through it once or twice.

-Marie-

[Thomas Fitzgerald]

A general feeling, most of us go through.