Let My Guard Down Willingly

four hours after the new years party in Pikesville, MD in December 1987
i let my guard down willingly 
as we stood face to face in 
the open doorway of the kibbutz style house of the Jewish Student Union
at Towson University from the
last few hours of 1987 into the new year of 1988
and it made no difference that I was 18 and you were 19, 
and then as if Moses 
had opened the flood gates 
and for once had parted
the sea waters
i thought 
would be stuck inside me 
and i would never 
fight my way 
out of my anxiety
by hearing with
my ears
while following
i almost didn't believe
said "I love you"
until I felt your heart beating 
in the same rhythm as my own heart 

because I was feeling as if our hearts 

were introducing themselves

and saying hello it's nice to meet your likeness on this cold new years eve.

January 3, 1988

Reviews

[sienikeha]

very journal entry poemified.

[Shimmerbliss/CAF]

It feels very personal, and I feel as if I am reading a poem from journal notes ... love the detail and the way you have captured the memory forever in words.