Gifts of Christmas

Gifts of Christmas 

By Christopher Ross Livingstone 

Here we are 

It's hard not to notice 

Callenders echoes Christmans Bells

Feeling and senses taking in the festive

Walking through these streets 

Stress upon the footfall

Shops swarming with pursuits  

Purchacing perfect gits

To gift dearest ones 

In Gifts of Christmas 

This time, last year

Raw motion in emotions

Protected in shock 

I was in a land of limbo

Lost in the land of grief 

I walked the streets without

Like waiting to be found once more

Because I lost my mother dearest 

So Christmas of 21 felt adrift 

Reflections over this period 

On these festive pages 

Calenders mark the time to end this year 

And I know this Winter Soltice and Yule is healing my heart

But my heart and lived experience cries onto these pages

Remincing the moments of childhood

Memories of Mum fill my heart

As I write with my heart

I take note on the meaning of Christmas

What is Gift of Christmas?

Christmas calenders of 2022 feels different 

No card can fill a space missing at the table 

Although senses are capturing the feeling of some colour and swing 

But my heart is conflicted as it echoes the Christmas of the past

It craves another moment in time with her 

My Mum's love sits in the missing space

Christmas is conflicted at heart 

Because the Gift of Christmas 

Would be to have another day with her!