4:18 (Unfinished)

Tried to write a song about current life, but ended up having the entire lyrics embody broken relationships with friends and family

"This, I'll never be
Far from mastery
A stress filled mind
And I'm running out of time
Wish I could escape this reality...
Dark visions cloud me
I'm seeking solidarity
Companionship is dead
When you're hanging by a thread
And your heart belongs in the obituaries
Lost friends over time
Lost words. No rhyme
I'm seeking in the past
And then the lights turn dim
And so my thoughts turn to ash
I'm surprised I'm alive
Although I'm still deprived
Of these wings meant to fly
Over these fields
And over these dreams
Clench my fist, but no reply
The seconds run past her
But the weeks run faster
Memory is a shame
When the months are to blame
So the years throw the last laughter
It was too good to be true
That is why you and me are through
The streets are deserted
So I go to the shore
The people have been alerted
Good things come and go
Bad things come and stay
You and I would both know
Listen to the bomb blow
Now everything's in disarray
My eyelids weigh a tonne
I love her. Bar none
The clocks hands have already spun
I've got no more fuel
To follow the rules
Step out of lines once more
I'll be like my homework - undone
Hear a guitar strum
Feel my heart beat like a drum
The noise makes my soul spin
As graceful as a violin
But I'll break away like crumbs
Make the most of life
Bring better things so rife
Bring in things
To make time pass by
A year and a half outta my life
To the final words put in
Scrub these verbs
To cleanse my sins
Take the evil from within
Remove the drugs till I turn thin
That way when I start my new life
In the beginning I may win