F*****g miss youA Story by AJ FieldsJust the late night thoughts of a man who misses someoneI f*****g miss you. I am laying in my bed, with a headache, just looking at
the ceiling; just thinking about all that I did wrong, all the awful things
that I say, and worst yet all the things that I felt but never really told you.
And for what? For fear? Stupid I wanted to buy a bottle of alcohol in the store next
door but I just ran out of cash, and now I have to deal with all this thoughts. You know, insomnia was already bad, but now is f*****g
dreadful, but well, I guess I only have myself to blame. Maybe it’s not too
late, perhaps I can still change things you know, fix all the s**t that I did,
yeah, maybe, maybe... no. You better without me. I fucked up and I have to
learn to live with that. I will only cause you more pain, because that what I
do, I take the things that I loved the most and I squeeze them until they ran
out of light. It’s been so long. Lately I founding harder to
remember your face; I can still remember your laugh, your smell, the way you
used to wake me up in the morning with two little kisses in the nose; but your
face is starting to get blurred, I found that… sad. I guess time does really
wipe your memories whether you want it or not. I know I’m wrong by working only to buy some cheap
alcohol in order to get wasted and unconscious in my bed, but damn I just don’t
know what to do. You were my lifeguard; my anchor in this crazy sea of noise in
that we live; my something to hold on to; you were my, my… I don’t know, maybe I will burn this letter or
something cause I’m sure as hell I’m no sending you this never. Well, one thing
is for sure… I f*****g miss you. © 2018 AJ FieldsAuthor's Note
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