Stuck

I dnt know how to say this..
This pressure in words it weighs me
This life  has got awful lazyy
My thrive got better it pays me
But time in my days its fading   
And time for sucess is lateing
And here i stay keep persuading
Myself that I'm just here pacing
Got bitter from these mistakes and
These ppl out here who faked me
My paranoia is great-ning
sinful ways come to betray me