The wall inside of me

Troubled relationships

Today you finished building

the wall inside of me

You hammered till you drove the nails

into my heart, you see

You thought it wouldn't matter

you thought I would pretend

I couldn't hear or feel your words

bringing my world to an end

You realize I can love you

and still let you go

The wounds caused by all these years

are deeper than you know

Do you realize I can watch

as you pack your stuff and leave?

As long as my children are happy

thats all that matters to me

This wall inside of me

was built by only you

Now my love is dead and gone

I no longer worship you

I have no more to offer to you

I can't give you anymore

This wall you built is solid

no windows and no doors

 

Author's Note

I am bipolar guys, I was on medication for 5 years and went off all meds last June. I had terrible side effects. This is a poem I wrote during that pain.

Reviews

[Imperfection]

I'm so glad it's behind you.

It's good to release one's emotions through writing. That contributes a lot to the healing process.

Now my love is dead and gone

I no longer worship you

I have no more to offer to you

I love the power in these lines. Decisiveness is what I see here. The will and the want to leave darkness behind.
You've emerged out of it stronger, no doubt.

[Barbara Walker]

This poem reflects the intent very well, flows smoothly, not enigmatic in any way, something I appreciate very much in poetry. I like the whole poem but especially the last 4 lines! Barbara

[Toni Prehoda Kahler]

This work speaks of steady strength, of knowing, of walking on. I hear undertones, though, of the pain that has gone before. In style and in content it stands strong and unshakable. I like the metaphor of wall, and it doesn't seem cliche or overused in this piece.

[shandi]

Hey, meds or not, you were in a terrible state but were strong enough to pen something beautiful! Its a gift to be able to do that, and i know that its not always easy! Some of my darkest work is what i cherrish the most because it served the purpose of release more than anything.

[mysticgmekeepr]

well I'm sorry you wrote that poem in a space of bipolar pain, but the poem is very good regardless. Hope you are doing better now and that you are still writing form the heart.

[Wildfleour]

Well, one positive side effect was this poem...I'm sorry you had to go through such a dark time and I hope that you have found a healthy balance for yourself.

Peace.